still too hard

i thought i would be ok for work today seeing that i was planning on drowning myself in monday paperwork.  sadly, this paperwork never materialized and i find myself procrastinating daily tasks and my mind begins to wander.

i should have stayed at home, but then again i do wonder whether staying at home would have been worse.  but at least there i didn't have to pretend everything was ok or have to close a door due to unplanned tears, i could have drowned in daytime talk tv and in pupster cuddles.  yes, cuddles, that would have been better.

"want to join me?" yes, please yes.